so i came across some bookfsmart software which slurps all the info from my blog and will put it into book form. so i am considering putting together a book. i can't tell you how not simple this process is. i am only doing this so i can give it to people i know, but i am judging what my process has been so harshly anyway.
i have one version done, but it happened way too soon. i am now working on a 2nd version that is basically embracing the stepwork and the gifts that brought with it. i don't know how long this will take, but i am not going to rush it. i am thinking it would be a good gift to give for my 7 years.
it is indeed a re-learning adventure. i came across this post which i had completely forgotten.
"under the influence"
Walking on a cloudi heard this remix by frankie knuckles today and can't get it outa my head... hava listen...
It happens every time
Whenever I'm with my guy
Tripping on love
And it feels so good
I can't help myself
And I wouldn't think I could
Plus he's got that certain drive
That I'm a victim to
Love's really got a hold on me
And there's nothing that I'd rather do
i guess the post title could lead to a wrong impression. no- i have not used. nor have i "fallen in love". i am, however, under the influence of something newer in my life. there have been distinctive and noticeable changes in my reactions to life recently. i feel as if i am being graced with patience and serenity in ways that are new and could be intoxicating.
a good portion of the reasons why are due to this spiritual program i am adapting for my life. it seems to fit more comfortably with each wear. with every working of the last 3 steps, i move toward peace. and part of it may also be an overarching relief about who's in charge with the ensuing inauguration of president-elect obama. i know i feel much more secure with someone i feel trustworthy in that position. and a good portion, no doubt, is the grace i have received these last two years, from scraping out all the sediment on my insides through this blogging process.
i have managed to clear away so much wreckage and make room for life again in an exhilarating way. this is a vibrant and colorful journey. the destination is still not known to me, but the pit stops and side bars have been life altering. i definitely am under the influence. of what i am not certain, but it feels a whole lot like love as i think it is.
posted at kickintina on January 17, 2009